wahai kamu,lelaki budiman,tidak terusik maruah lelaki mu andai diturunkan level ego kamu ini untuk memujuk hati yang kau sakiti.kadang-kadang,kebaikan itu bukan untuk dibalas,memandai kalau kamu tahu menghargai atau paling tidak sematkan dihati untuk dikenang.jangan sampai cinta itu pudar daripada hatinya.hargailah sebelum kehilangannya.bukan menjadi kesalahan jika memberi hati peluang ke dua untuk mencintai dan dicintai semula.....
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Tersentak lamunan,bila diri ini disentuh,oleh seseorang.. kucuba damaikan,hati yang kian berkocak.. Agar keresahan hati aku ini tidak nampak!!
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Do You Know??
Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila seorang perempuan jatuh cinta,lelaki itu tidak semestinya punya segalanya tetapi lelaki itu adalah segalanya di hatinya. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila seorang perempuan itu mengalirkan air mata, itu bukan bermakna dia lemah, t...etapi dia sedang mencari kekuatan untuk terus tabah menyintai lelaki itu. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila seorang perempuan marah, memang dia tidak mampu mengawal perasaannya tapi percayalah, itulah maknanya dia sangat mengambil berat dan menyayangi lelaki itu. Lihat saja pasangan yang baru bercinta, mereka jarang bergaduh. Tetapi percayalah semakin bertambah sayang mereka pada seseorang, semakin pula banyak pertelingkahan yang berlaku. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan bercakap banyak, dia tidak pernah bermaksud untuk membuat anda rimas, tapi dia mahu lelaki mengenalinya dengan lebih dekat. Andain lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan berkata dia mahu anda berubah, itu bukan bermakna dia tidak mahu menerima anda seadanya, tetapi dia mahu menjadikan anda lebih baik, bukan untuk dirinya, tetapi untuk masa depan anda. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan cemburu dan tidak percayakan anda, bukan bermakna dia tidak sayang..tetapi dia terlalu sayangkan anda dan masih mengangap anda anak kecil yang masih memerlukan sepenuh perhatian. Kadang2 dia terlalu risau sekiranya terlalu percaya, anda akan mengkhianati kepercayaan yang diberi. Naluri keibuannya sangat kuat. Dia hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk anda. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan merajuk, jangan kata dia mengada-ngada. Dia bukannya mahu dipujuk dengan wang ringgit atau hadiah sedozen, tetapi cukup dengan perhatian yang boleh buat perempuan rasa dihargai. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan jarang mengatakan ‘i love u’, itu tidak bermaksud dia tidak menyintai tetapi dia mahu lelaki itu merasai sendiri cintanya, bukan hanya hadir dari kata-kata tetapi juga melalui bahasa tubuhnya. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan kata dia rindu sama kamu, dia benar-benar maksudkannya. Apabila berjauhan, bayanganmu akan sentiasa bermain di mata. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan kata lelaki lain itu lebih baik dari kamu, jangan percaya kata-katanya kerana dia hanya mahu menguji kamu. Dia mahu melihat sejauh mana kamu sanggup menjadi yang terbaik di matanya. Walaupun sebenarnya memang kamulah yang terbaik di hatinya. Selagi dia dengan kamu, percayalah, walaupun perempuan menganggap masih ramai lagi yang lebih baik di matanya tetapi di hatinya, kamu tetap yang terbaik. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan menjadi degil, dia bukan bermaksud untuk menjadi degil tapi dia mahu melihat sejauh mana lelaki itu mampu bersabar dengan kerenahnya. Percayalah, hati perempuan itu sangat lembut. Andai kena caranya, jangan terkejut kalau akhirnya dia menukar fikirannya dalam masa sesaat. Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan berkata, “tolong tinggalkan saya!”, dia tidak bermaksud menyuruh anda pergi selamanya. Dia hanya mahu menenangkan fikirannya sebentar saja. Apabila dia kembali tenang, percayalah dia akan mencari anda semula. Itu tandanya dia benar-benar menyintai anda. Perempuan sukar untuk mengawal perasaan. Dia terlalu emosional. Tapi dialah yang paling menyayangi anda dan sangat sensitif dengan perubahan pada diri anda. Andai lelaki tahu..Sememangnya Allah menciptakan lelaki dan perempuan itu dengan perbezaan yang tersendiri. Tetapi sekiranya mereka saling memahami, mereka akan saling melengkapi dan menyempurnakan . Perempuan itu diciptakan oleh Allah indah sekali. Di sebalik air matanya, tersimpan seribu satu kekuatan yang bakal menjadikan seorang lelaki itu merasa selamat bersamanya. Biarpun zahirnya perempuan itu tampak lemah tapi dia punya kekuatan tersendiri yang bisa menggoncang dunia dan mungkin bisa pula membuat lelaki menjadi lemah kerananya. Jadi hargailah kehadiran seorang perempuan dalam hidup anda kerana dia didatangkan bukan dengan kelemahan sahaja tetapi dia juga ada kekuatan untuk menyongkong anda dan membuatkan hidup anda lebih sempurna. Dialah yang bakal menjadi perempuan bekerjaya, isteri juga ibu yang terbaik untuk anak2 anda..
Thursday, March 3, 2011
marriage..
MARRIAGE
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
KaWeN??? PoSinG??
adoi, perasaan yang kurang senang nieyh bila junior tanya, " Kak Ziera bila lagi?" hahahaha... cuti lepas,junior2(bawah umur aku jerk) ajak la p majlis pertunangan kawan dorang.. dak ni kitaorang panggil die BAWANG.. g umah dia sebab nak makan jer,last2 kene bawak hantaran plak p umah tunang die nie.. apa lagi,serbu la kami suma,, adew la dalam 3 hingga 4 bijik keta.ni pon kami2 jerk dak MI.hahaha.. tunang die wat color pink n puteyh as tema die..
amacam?? aku ciap bergambarlah.. mana tak nya,camera banyak sangat kan?hahaha.. ni bab tema la yer,, ni aku nak citer sal HOT MAMA!hahaha... junior aku ni nama die NURUL,mai bawak perut yg agak besar.kira malam yg aku jumpa sebelum ni,memang sah die ngandung,tahniah2!! nak dapat baby dah! tapi yg best nyer,die steady jer.xdew pon cam sakit2.. bakal baby die(sebab belum kuar),mesti sihat kan?? yang Nadia ni plak,da selamat bersalin dah. waduh2.udah adew baby,hehe.. tgk kat fb,comel jer baby die.huhu...
sambung balik citew.. aku and da geng yang sampai umah bawang nie,asyik posing jerk.antang adew camera,ade la inz yang di snap.hahaha...
kan aku da cakap??nak upload,full lak page t.hahaha... aku pon da nak tidow ni,, jap lg claz lak.. so,nie pic yang sempat di snap,pas majlis bertunang..
amacam?? aku ciap bergambarlah.. mana tak nya,camera banyak sangat kan?hahaha.. ni bab tema la yer,, ni aku nak citer sal HOT MAMA!hahaha... junior aku ni nama die NURUL,mai bawak perut yg agak besar.kira malam yg aku jumpa sebelum ni,memang sah die ngandung,tahniah2!! nak dapat baby dah! tapi yg best nyer,die steady jer.xdew pon cam sakit2.. bakal baby die(sebab belum kuar),mesti sihat kan?? yang Nadia ni plak,da selamat bersalin dah. waduh2.udah adew baby,hehe.. tgk kat fb,comel jer baby die.huhu...
sambung balik citew.. aku and da geng yang sampai umah bawang nie,asyik posing jerk.antang adew camera,ade la inz yang di snap.hahaha...
kan aku da cakap??nak upload,full lak page t.hahaha... aku pon da nak tidow ni,, jap lg claz lak.. so,nie pic yang sempat di snap,pas majlis bertunang..
Friday, January 28, 2011
Sedeyh?!
hye kawan2..
hurmmm,pelik kan?mood yang dok menggila tetiba jadi sedeyh?? macam nie la anak yang jauh diperantauan.mencarik ilmu tuk kegunaan masa depan.ehee.. ase kejap je mase ni berlalu.. 28 Disember 2008,aku nek moto ngan Kak Alin dari Bukit Jalil datang Shah Alam sebab tarikh ni lah aku baru 1st time kene masuk kuliah.masa tu En.Kekek yang ngajar.Pensyarah muda lg masa tu,skang da jadi pensyarah agak tua.haha.. "My name is NORAZERA BT SHAHIDI. IM FROM PENANG N IM PLAYING HOCKEY. U CAN CALL ME, MOK!!' start dari tarikh ni jugak,nama glamour aku ni,MOK! bayangkan msa sem dua,kawan2 aku xtaw nama betul aku lagi?haha.. tapi xpa lah kan,skang dorang pon da taw nama aku,num matrix skali n camna signature aku.hahahaha.. aper motif aku blajar?? sebab nak dapatkan sijil diploma tu la.ingatkan senang ker nak dapat,amek course terhebat kat sini,sapa tak kenal dak sport rec?haha.. aku terkenal kat sini,, taw sebab apa??sebab aku slalu kasi 'rem' moto aku bila nak masuk kolej aku.haha.. pak guard suma leyh dikatakan kenal aku sebab 2.hahaha... aku start ada moto bila aku ada duit.nak taw dapat mana duit tue,pk2 sendirik lah kan?hahaha.. sejak tu aku jarang jalan kaki dalam uitm,adew moto la katakan kan?hehe.. satu uitm aku da pusing,gtaw la nak p mana,INSYAALLAH aku ley gtaw.. bila lama2 kat sini aku ase boshan.rindu jerk nak balik PENANG,tapi bila nak blah aku ase rindu lak suasana kat sini,,banyak kenangan.manis,masin,kelat,masam suma ada.hahaha.. mana tak nya,prinsip aku,KENE WAT NAKAL KAT SATU2 TEMPAT!BARU ADEW KENANGAN..ok,t aku sambung balik yerk?? da ngantok la.hukhuk.. t aku citer lagi kenangan aku kat sini lagi k???
Princess Wynterlurver Terkilan!!
assalamualaikum kawan2,,
sejak2 amek citer 3 idiot kat kawan nie,asyik buka cita nie jer,, tiap2 ari tengok,, best la,, taw sebab apa PW cakap best? sebab citer ni hepi yang leyh wat kita terpikir yang idop kita ni bukan senang dan bukan susah.. suma penting,family,kawan2,cikgu2,n buah aty lah,ehem,ehem,,hahaha,, bagaimana seorang kawan sanggup bersusah payah tolong kawan2 yg baik ngan dia,macam mna serong anak taat n ikut jer cakap family n seorang kekaseh yang menganggap cinta tu macam dalam filem.. 1st skali sal kawan2,rancho ni banyak kowt tolong kawan2 dia.tapi si raju ni slalu anggap salah padahal si farhan ni sokong si rancho.. family??hurm.dorg nie blajaq sebab family yg suh.clu tak,dowg mesti wat apa yg dorg suka nya.. haahaa.bab paling best2,QEQASEH.haha.. cam dalam filem,pastu terus lagu.perh,tiap2 ari dengar lagu tue.hahaha.. pe2 pon,clu awak ase takut,amek tangan,letak kat dada n cakap AAL IZ WELL.ok????
sejak2 amek citer 3 idiot kat kawan nie,asyik buka cita nie jer,, tiap2 ari tengok,, best la,, taw sebab apa PW cakap best? sebab citer ni hepi yang leyh wat kita terpikir yang idop kita ni bukan senang dan bukan susah.. suma penting,family,kawan2,cikgu2,n buah aty lah,ehem,ehem,,hahaha,, bagaimana seorang kawan sanggup bersusah payah tolong kawan2 yg baik ngan dia,macam mna serong anak taat n ikut jer cakap family n seorang kekaseh yang menganggap cinta tu macam dalam filem.. 1st skali sal kawan2,rancho ni banyak kowt tolong kawan2 dia.tapi si raju ni slalu anggap salah padahal si farhan ni sokong si rancho.. family??hurm.dorg nie blajaq sebab family yg suh.clu tak,dowg mesti wat apa yg dorg suka nya.. haahaa.bab paling best2,QEQASEH.haha.. cam dalam filem,pastu terus lagu.perh,tiap2 ari dengar lagu tue.hahaha.. pe2 pon,clu awak ase takut,amek tangan,letak kat dada n cakap AAL IZ WELL.ok????
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